Long time, no write....

Gosh, I can't believe it's been almost a month since I've written anything. Goes to show how crazy life has been.

Little Maeryn is doing great, and growing fast. She and her big bro Remy are inseparable now and the cats have come to terms with the fact that another loud, obnoxious, drooly thing has joined the family.

We're getting ready for our May family reunion - doing our best to clear the land of fallen debris, branches and other storm damage before everyone arrives at the end of the month.

I get so excited this close to our Chosen Family reunions - they only happen twice a year, and are the two times of the year I actually find myself counting the days (and hours and minutes) until everyone arrives.

The beauty of chosen family is truly a gift - to find like minded, loving and accepting people who love you for who you are, faults and all, is an amazing thing. I am so very blessed by those who call me friend, and whom I can call Hearthkin.

At each reunion, we all get badges with our names on them (it is only twice a year and some of us old fogeys are not that good at names) and some of us get badges with a special picture. The pic at the top of the blog is for mine this time - it reflects how I'm feeling - a rainbow of emotions.

Just 21 more days....and then it's hugs all around....man, I can't wait.

Good Omens

Yes, that's a puppy. Our puppy. The newest member of Clan de Soto. Meet Maeryn, a spunky bundle of energy who entered our lives on Sunday, during a rescue mission of sorts. It seems Maeryn had been foraging around a trailer park, and the owner of said park had decided she was a nuisance and was going to shoot her. Enter our friend Miranda, who took Maeryn and brought her to Pyrth.

The good news is that there has been a pronounced change in Remy - he's no longer moping and instead is happily trouncing through the leaves with Maeryn, teasing her with toys that are kept just out of her reach, and closely guarding her while she "does her business" in the woods. He's taken on the big brother role with relish, and it's done him a world of good.
We're still grieving over our loss of Cenau - just typing out his name brings tears to my eyes. Maeryn is in no way a replacement for such a wonderful and loving companion. She is who she is, and will find her place in this family on her own terms I'm sure.


The other good omen this week was a call back on one of the thousands of resumes I've sent out - this one is for a good job based in Little Rock. It all starts with a phone interview and moves on from there - wish me luck. I'm very hopeful that little Maeryn is a sign from above that the tide is turning, and the pendulum has finally started to swing in the other direction.

Another Turn of the Wheel

Another year come and gone - and what a year it was. Highs and lows, firsts and lasts. Looking back, you'd almost think it was my saturn return again. Nope, still got 7 years to go for that lovely year to come round - guess this was just a warm-up.

So - let's look at the stats:
I'm in a job that ends at the end of the month.
My beloved dog died the day before my birthday.
I'll be paying off my car's repair bill til August.
I'm living - living - in a tent.

So, to summarize, I am gelatinous clay for the universe to mold - so get on with it already! What is the hold up? What lesson have I missed? Where did I turn wrong? How do I fix this???????????????????????????????????????????????

Being the solid Aries that I am, banging my head against walls is routine, nay almost cliche. But I have a headache now and I can't take it anymore.

Is it time to be put out to pasture? Sent to the glue factory? WHAT!?!?!?!?!?!?

Gimme a sign universe, a big, clear one cause I have tri-focals now and it's hard to focus - nice, big, obvious, THIS WAY sign would be great about now...anytime now...feel free...I'll be here, flapping as fast as I can, trying not to fall into the abyss...so hurry up, it's dark down there.

In Remembrance...

Today, our beloved friend and familiar, Cenau - bear cub in welsh - has gone on to the Elysian Fields, to play with Merlin and Gizmo, and romp through the grasses and chase rabbits.

He went for a last run through the river, his favorite place on the land, and then lay down to sleep beside it's banks, and never woke up.

Our hearts are broken - his beloved side kick Remy is lost - unsure of what has happened and where his protector has gone.

Please, light a candle so he can find his way. May his passage be one of loving warmth and sunny blue skies.

His mortal remains will be buried tonight in the Memory Garden at Pyrth Annwn, but his spirit will continue to the next turn of the wheel.

Good bye our dear friend, our dearest one, our joy. You will be missed, and you will be remembered.